Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Love Life 1.4? I Am A Loser!

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:
6.5
Mind:
6.2
Body:
6.4
Spirit:
7.5
Friends/Family:
5
Love:
1.4
Finance:
6.1
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Saturday, February 25, 2006

Kisses: To Each His Own

(I may expand on this story someday, but for right now this is all there is...)

A girl sits with her boyfriend discussing why she is so caught up in getting her first kiss. Why she looks for such a physical relationship. Neither have ever been kissed, but for reasons of his own the boy holds back.

Girl: (questioningly) Why dont you ever kiss me?

Boy: (a little disappointedly) I dont understand. Why do you want a kiss so much? Why is that so important to you?

Girl: (holding back a little) Lets just say its an emotional thing.

Boy: I just am trying to understand you better. I want to know why you seem to want or need this so much.

Girl: I guess its because guys have never really liked me. I would often think they did, but I was just mistaking their kindness for flirting and interest. Kisses, small and simple ones, are symbolic to me of a love I can feel. I never really felt loved by my dad either. Well, I felt loved, but not the kind of love I need, you know? I guess I just need them, to know I am loved.

Boy: Is that the only way you will know I love you? Cant you tell by the other things I do for you?

Girl: (looking away) Yes. It was just a question.

Boy: This really means that much to you?

Girl: (trying not to be pushy) If dont want to, thats fine. I totally understand.

Awkward silence as both look away for about five seconds. He looks at her tilts her head towards his and gives her the smallest, simplest and purest kiss...

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Devoted To A Passion

Most people you know have a passion in life. Something they are truly good at and generally something that inspires them and causes them to forget about ordinary life, even if its only momentarily. Most people are open with their passions, but if they arent, theres no need to judge. Secrets can be a passion too.

Dance is one of my many passions. I would venture to say its my biggest passion. But, its not something I want to do for a living and so Im majoring in theatre instead. I danced ballet, privately, for ten years. Its been about a year and a half since Ive stopped. Its been painful to give up such a passion. Both literally and mentally. But, I take ballroom and I relive a small part of the happiness. Dance is not really my passion. Ballet is my passion. I enjoy every type of dance, but it is ballet that really gets my heart pumping.

We took a brief break from our rehearsal today, and when I came back Mandy was doing run, run leaps across the room. She apparently felt like a stretch just as a sudden burst of energy zoomed through her body. Feeling the motions and the rhythms so intensely. She looked happy. For a moment, I saw the same look on her face that I see on Tommy Steele every time I watch one of his movies (Finians Rainbow, The Happiest Millionaire). For a moment, I was jealous. But, not for long.

My heart racing with excitement I joined in! I kicked off my slippers and started spinning across the room in peake turns. Twirling around my skirt spinning, my heart pumping, my blood racing and my eyes lighting up as I was once again reunited with a long lost love.

Anyone who has ever lost someone or something very precious and dear to them, understands what I felt as I lost it so long ago. But, very few people become reunited with that someone or something. I consider myself lucky. Even if it was only for a few moments, I was the happiest person in the world! No one else mattered but me. I was the most important, the most beautiful and the all around best!

I miss ballet. I long for ballet. My heart goes out to anyone who has ever put away a dream, for one reason or another. And I leave you with this quote...

"Your father has put away many dreams!" -Mrs. Darling

"Where did he put them?" -Michael Darling

"He put them in a drawer. And sometimes, late at night, he will take them out...and admire them. But each time, it gets harder and harder to close the drawer. And he does." -Mrs. Darling

Peter Pan

A Boy Called Suave by Brynneth Q

A short story in response to the question, "What do girls see in him?"

When you first meet him, you notice his eyes. The sparkle, the life, the excitement they show. For a few seconds your eyes are fixed on his in wonder and amazement.
After you regain forcus on life you look at him whenever you think he doesnt notice. The fact is, you're intrigued. You dont necessarily like him, but his eyes leave you thinking about what mysteries his life holds.
You find any excuse to talk to him just to get a feel for his personality. He's funny... smart... so far so good. He has a way of keeping your interest peaked.
The next thing you notice is his mouth. It holds a secret. A secret about you. He smiles as if he knows something about you that you dont want him to know, but you cant put your finger on what he knows exactly.
You continue to talk to him in hopes that he will give something away, and you will have one up on him. You're hooked. You have no idea why.
When another girl falls into the same trap, only then can you see whats going on and remove yourself from this bondage.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Compulsive Liar

So, the thing is, Ive been telling everyone lately that I am a compulsive liar. And, Im only half right. The more I thought about, the more I discovered that that was half wrong... I lie to avoid an embarrassing situation. Not to get out of trouble, just to get out of being embarrassed.

I'll give you the scenario. I told him I liked him... In a very round about way. He told me I got the wrong impression, and he doesnt like me. So, to avoid an embarrassing situation, I lied. I said, "no. the thing is I like to know going into a flirty relationship if there is a chance that it will go anywhere on the guys part. see, if I know it wont, I can put up that wall and there is no concern of either of our feelings getting hurt."

After having heard this he must have assumed that now I knew and it was ok to flirt again. That or he just doesnt know what flirting is. Either way, he did it again today. I was royally pissed off! I complained to the three people following this whole mess and they were just as pissed off. The thing is, its only half true. I meant what I said. I do like to know so I can put up a wall. But, its too late for one now. I like him a lot!

I feel bad for having lied to him, and then getting pissed off at something he did when I practically gave him permission. I guess mostly I was mad at myself. I hate when I do things like this. I didnt tell anyone that that is what I said because I didnt want to enter into a different embarrassing situation. Im so... retarded. duh.

I feel better having practically spilt my guts all over this page. I want everyone to know that if they think I am lying, they should probably ask. Its better that way. For everyone involved.

TO HIM:
Im sorry buddy. I shouldnt have done that. But, I did and I want us to be friends still. Im very good at keeping a friendship while I like him and he doesnt like me. Ive had tons of practice....

Sunday, February 19, 2006

ACTF Part 1: Good Times, Good Times!

"Aaaaaannnnnnd done!" -Tanya

"I got pulled over for drunk driving!" -Fallon

"Im gonna put my pajamas on and climb into bed with you!" -Amberly

"You do have pretty hair!" -Mikey

"Where did you learn to think of boys like that?" -Jordan

"We were just standing here talking about...Breaking walls!" *penetrating stare* -JB

"We follow you!" -Tom

"I follow you. I have more cameras than just this one..." -Joel

"Ah! See! I told you! Pajamas under the gay shirt!" -Kristen

"You cant have the whole bed, youre too fat!" -Bryn

"Tell us what you want, and we'll do it for you!" -Sarah M

"Theres a bus going back to Orem tomorrow. Maybe you should be on it." -Terry

"I had a stalker once. It was fun!" -Melissa S

"I woke up like this! I was like "Haaaaaiiiirrrrrspray! Hairspray!"" -Meagan

"This is baby. For lack of a better name." -Melissa C

"Im not gonna come out and move the van during intermission. Come back, right here." -Steve

"You know, youre not a very good babysitter." -Spencer

"Honey, Im the pretty one EVERY day!" -Joe

"I saw furniture and I thought hair." -Jyllian

Saturday, February 11, 2006

To: Willy




Willy!!!

Im smiling!

Im smiling Willy!

Just for you!

OOOOOoooooooo

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Which celebrity beauty are you? (Pix)

Drew Barrymore
You are the down to earth beauty. You are modest but still sexy. Guys love simple girls. Excess is trashy. You can't go wrong keeping with the basics.

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Sunrise Eyes

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What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)

Sunrise
You have sunrise eyes. Sunrise is the color of joy and elation. Your eyes symbolize your general sense of wellness. Your confidence and high self-esteem each and every day make you the person people want to be around. You are a very creative, passionate, and sexual person. You are not afraid to tell people what you think of them, whether good or bad. Some words to describe you: self-assuredness, out-going, busy, cheerful, bright, amiability, courage, successful, creative, personable, happiness, motivational, optimistic, strong, and aware.

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Friday, February 10, 2006

Whoa! Who knew?


Which Action Star Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Hawaiian, eh?




Your Hawaiian Name is:



Ululani Kaili


hmmm....I suppose...

Your 2005 Song Is

Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson

"But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on"

In 2005, you moved on.