Wednesday, September 29, 2004

I decided

today I realized that I love helping people! not like service, like helping them, but just listening to their troubles and giving them whatever advice or word of comfort I can. I absolutely love everytime Kristi tells me her guy problems, or when Tasha tells me her problems with...whatever she is having problems with.

I just don't like when they abuse the privilege (I prolly spelled that wrong but I don't really care right now) like if they complain two hundred times a day every stinking day! that sucks! but Kristi never abuses the privilege... and I like that. hott sexy thing you! I luff you...yes...luff! *mmm*

Monday, September 27, 2004

hung out with hott boy...

TODAY: hung out with hott boy. thought he got even hotter. told him he was hott. hott boy didnt believe me. oh well...

"isn't that the way they say it goes?" -song

"some things in this world you just can't change" -song

anyone who can name the first one just got hotter to me and if you can name the second, youre cool. if you can name both you are hott and cool!

Sunday, September 26, 2004


have you ever just seen someone and felt like,...connected to them? like you were best friends, yet youve never even met them before! its happened to me a good three times. I wont tell you who because people will say Im insane. I just wanted to put this one out there and see if anyone else out there was like me...then maybe I wont feel so wacked and insane if Im not alone in this strange feeling. I hope you know what Im talking about. someone.

Saturday, September 25, 2004

awkward silences...

so have you ever been in a situation where either the person your dancing with, or the person you're playing opposite in a show doesn't like you very much? it's not that they hate you, but you just don't have anything to talk about and when you do talk, you almost end in an argument. yes,'ve guessed it. I'm complaining about my forest ranger! it's not like we are enemies or anything. we just don't get along.

it's kind of frusterating trying to pretend I'm "madly in love with him." I don't know. most of the time we just end up dancing in silence, and the select few times we do say things to each other...we don't look at each other. which is also very awkward. I just feel so weird around him. I wish I didn't. I wish my partner was someone who I really get along with like Tyler Clark. now there's a funny kid! but we would make one of the ugliest couples I've ever seen! (no offense to him of course, we just don't) oh well.

it's like that one quote from that one movie, "the sun will always go on rising and setting, but sometimes, I wish it wouldn't." if anyone knows what movie that is, you are even more pathetic than me.

Friday, September 24, 2004


there are so many different types of hugs. not usually between two girls, although there are differences in those too. what I'm talking about are the hugs between a girl and guy.

this could just be me but this is how I see it as far as my guy friends go:

1- your arms under his = you are like family to each other. and thats a nice bond to have because you mostly see the best side of your "brother/sister" not the one you fight with so much cause you don't live together.

2- your arms on top of his, sort of around his shoulders = you like him. (unless he put them there)

3- his arms go around your shoulders, from behind = a nice, safe, secure, loved feeling. (remember this is just my opinion) not like a "love" feeling, a loved and wanted feeling. it makes me feel like "this is a guy that will never let me fall and always be there when I need him." he is probably one of my closest friends, and definitely the easiest guy to talk to.

well today was one of those days Shmoo blogged about a while ago. where you just feel like dying because you tripped or something equally lame and you feel like now you dont deserve to live. (well I wasnt quite that bad...) anyways I really needed some hugs today. but it really didnt start until I got home. so if any of you who read this tonight, see me tomorrow,...hug me. I luff you all!

Monday, September 20, 2004

and I thought I had problems...

Up until today I thought my life sucked, and it does sort of. But not half as bad as I make it out to be half of the time, and I don't have half as much room to complain as most of you. So, I would just like to say that I am so sorry if I ever seem like a whiner. I need to stop thinking of myself and stop being so selfish all the time. I am so sorry. If any of you ever need to talk just let me know. I'm here for ya. I also want to say that if I am acting selfish ever again, please tell me to stop and then hit me really hard! I probably deserve it for something, right?

Saturday, September 18, 2004

stupid people!

I know I already blogged today but I couldn't help it. I had to get online again and e-mail my sis. who is on her mission anyways so I figured what the freak. Why not? So here I am blogging. What I want to say the most is...I hate stupid people! Mostly just the stupid ones at my "special ed" school (for those of you who don't know what I mean, too bad for you) but there are other people too! I really don't like when people I hate/dislike call and ask me for a favor. I don't know if it's because I'm nice or possessed but I always give in and then I end up regretting it later on! Duh! Honestly, I dont know if its a blessing or a curse. Currently I'm thinking curse beyond all reason!


Parents can be so frusterating sometimes! duh! don't they know that force will make it more likely we will disobey? I'm not saying that they should not set rules and consequences and that sort of thing but really! when they yell at you and force me to do stuff I want to do it a lot less. Retards! whatever...